I can’t remember whether I wrote something about him in my blog.

He is someone who cares for me so much.
He is someone whom I look for when I’m in trouble.
He is someone whom I can share every single problem I face.
He is someone who will accompany me through video call in MSN even though we are far apart.
He is someone who never pressure me in my life.
He is someone who respects my choice.
He is someone who will say something to make me smile when I’m sad.
He is someone who writes sweet emails that make me happy.
He is someone who will never leave me alone no matter what.
He is someone whom I own forever.
He is someone I respect the most.
He is my real man.

He is my father, a special father I have.
A father who does something that not all of the fathers do.
He is a father who drives his children here and there, drives us everywhere we wanna go.
He is a father who will repair his children’s favorite but broken shoes.
He is a father who knows how to make cute key chains.
He never wants his children to do something they don’t like.
He is a father who will ask his children to get a job near home, coz he knows his children miss home so much.

He is the real man I love the most.

Love your family coz they’re the ones who will never leave you no matter what.

Today is the 2nd day of Chinese New Year.

On Chinese New Year’s eve, we went to TK Wu Restaurant for Chinese New Year dinner. Everyone was busy with Midterms and stuff, so we didn’t do anything fun after the dinner. And, I had to go back to library to do the ASPEN Group Project (Thermodynamics Project given by Prof. Ziff). Of course, I didn’t forget to call home to wish everyone back there "Happy Chinese New Year".

This year, I just feel terribly homesick… I really wanna go back to be with my family. Not that I wanna enjoy the food or anything back there, I just wanna be with my family, be with my mummy.

Maybe for some people, Chinese New Year is just another day. But for me, it is significant. It is the time when everyone will be back at home. It is the time to meet with your relatives and friends. It is a different day. It is special.

I miss my grandma, and I miss her even more on this special day.  When  we (her grandchildren) wished her "gong xi fa cai", she always hugged us and kissed us, and whispered to us "study diligently, must be obedient etc". I will not hear that from her anymore…

Wishing everyone a very prosperous year!

I’m back in Michigan! I reached Ann Arbor this morning. Due to time difference between California and Michigan, I felt a little jet lag but I didn’t get a nap (although I was really tired and sleepy).

I spent ten days in California - 4 days in Disneyland, 1 day at Universal Studio, 1 day at Santa Monica Beach, 1 day at Hollywood and the rest at Downtown LA (including ChinaTown). When I was in Disneyland, I knew that I’m going to drop a really long post when I’m back. Coz we really had a lot of FUN, all the rides, parades, shows, Disney characters etc were really awesome! But I think, I’m not going to do that anymore. I’m more than willing to share my experiences in California with all of you who would like to know, just don’t feel like writing it out right now.

It’s New Year’s Eve, no, probably it’s January 1st, 2008 right now. And I’m alone in my room, writing this post. My uncle and brother were actually msn-calling me, but I hung up and told them I’m going to bed ad. I’m really tired and sleepy…

Hopefully I’ll have time to upload my photos tomorrow. Check out my Friendster and also MSN Livespace.

School will reopen on Jan 3rd, 08. Feel so reluctant to go back to school again.

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Huh…
Finally, finally, finally… Finally, this week comes to an end. Everything that is due today, is handed in on time. And now, I’m here, sitting comfortably in front of one of the Mac PC at Fishbowl. What a relief!

If you were with me last night, you would see how crazy I was.
"Craziness" started on Tuesday! After whole day of classes and the last class was Physics lab (ended at about 5pm), I attended Physics Exam Review Session from 8-10pm (My day didn’t end yet, continue to study till about 12am). On the next day (Wednesday), I had Study Group from 4-6pm, went to another review session from 6-6.30pm. And then, Chem E. office hour from 7-9pm. I was exhausted by the time I walked out from Chem E. office hour. My brain couldn’t take it anymore… BUT still, I had to study for PHYSICS exam! The exam was last night, 8-9.30pm. It’s hard, it’s really hard this time. Anyway, I didn’t have time to think about it or even to worry about it. Forget about it, I knew that the only thing that I should do was to finish up all the homeworks which are due today. I went to Duderstadt right after the exam, coz I need to simulate the calculations using ASPEN (a computer program for Chem E. homework). I sat there for one hour, trying to figure out how to get it done. SIGH, I failed. I decided to go back, to do the written part of the homework first. My head was so pain till I had to take Paracetamol. (I was wondering if I would go crazy one day because of all these homeworks and exams? Of course I don’t want to go crazee because of all these!) Finally, I finished up Chem E. homework at 1.30am (with some help from S.Ling- she helped me to key in the numbers into the calculator for the tedious integration part, THANKS a lot!). That’s it for Thursday! I was so tired, my brain was so tired…

This morning, although I don’t have class  till 10.30am, I woke up  at 7 something to get the remaining of homework done. I tried to run ASPEN again, and I got it! I’m happy even though I’m not sure whether I got it right The next thing to do was Japanese Homework. And fortunately, I managed to finish it up before the Japanese class at 1pm! I’m done!! I’m done!! And, it’s Friday!!

HUH… I know I have to finish up everything on time, and I know I will finish up everything… That’s why my tears did not roll down for this whole "super-hectic" week, not at all.

Is it the time to worry about how did I do in the Physics exam?
I guess NOT, since I can’t change anything anymore.
Probably I should work harder for the Finals, which are coming soon..

^-^

      All of a sudden, Prof. Winn announced that there’ll be a review session from 8-10pm tonight. Probably I shouldn’t use "all of a sudden" since we should expect a review because Midterm 2 is on Thursday.
      I had Physics lab till 5pm and I went to UGLi (I thought I wanna sit down and start doing some practice problems). However, I couldn’t find a place that make me feel comfortable, people were talking/discussing which really made me felt annoyed. I walked to Diag but it was too cold for me to sit on the bench.  I continued  walking, and I felt that there were just too many people around me. And I walked all the way to Angell Hall and sitting down to drop a blog.
      I guess I think a lot, recently.  I would have called my brother if it’s not early morning in Malaysia now. I really need to talk to someone. I found that I just couldn’t find a number in my "Address Book" to call and chat, just to chat. Why is it so hard? Is it my problem? Am I really so picky?
      Maybe I am actually "accumulating" "stress" all the while and I’m not aware of it. And now, I realize that the exam is near, papers are "coming" etc etc, which make me feel kinda bad now… Well, I’ll take deep breathe and start my ‘battle’ now!

Pray for me…

Fall Break is here, finally.. Well, it’s going to end pretty soon. Classes will resume on Wednesday and I haven’t even started any of the things that I planned to do over this break. I’ve been so busy, not because of study though.

Too many things happened since the day Fall Break started.

On Friday, I moved out from Residence Hall and moved into Northwood Apartment. I wanted so much to stay in an apartment, and now I’m in my new apartment Spent whole evening to move all my "assets" and "properties", thanks to S.Ling and P.Ying who helped to carry all my stuff. Then, I started to do some cleaning; again, thanks to Ling who helped a lot in cleaning up the apartment. What a tiring Friday!

On Saturday, I unpacked all my stuff early in the morning. And then cooked fried rice for Ling and PeiYing. After lunch, Keat Seng picked us up and we went to IKEA I bought two floor lamps, a shoe rack, tupperware etc from IKEA. After that, we went to HuaXing China Market to get some stuff. Our day didn’t stop here, we went to Meijer after that. Again, got some food and stuff for my apartment. Last but not least, we went to Great Lake Restaurant to have dinner. It was great, esp. the Taro Duck! We thought we could go home and get some rest after the dinner. Who knows, we were told that we should start preparing some ingredients for Raya dinner, which was on Sunday night. We went to Fizah’s house and started to cut onions, garlic, ginger etc. Almost all of us "cried" because of the onions :p

Saturday was over just like that.. Again, we went to Fizah’s house on Sunday morning. Now, we started cooking rendang, since Sophomore were assigned to cook Rendang Daging and Rendang Ayam. Till about 3pm, we left and went to Jason’s house for lunch. He cooked Broccoli with Celery, and fried eggs with dried prawn. it was simple and nice lunch Thanks to Jason.. Till at night, we went to West Quad’s Wedge Room for the Raya Dinner. It’s a kinda large turnout for the Dinner, and we did enjoy some Raya songs presented by some Malay friends, esp. the Raya song of EON(Proton)’s advertisement.. Selamat Hari Raya to all my fellow Malay friends.

After the dinner, we went to Pinball Pits to take photos (those "Sticker’s Photos"). After we bought Bubble Tea, we went back to Baits (Azlynn’s Room). We watched "Secret" since Ling and I haven’t finished it although we started watching the First Part long time ago. Then, we started our Pillow Talk Azlynn, Meichen, Ling and I talked a lot although it was late night. We knew we seldom have chance to be together and crap, that’s why we stayed up till about 3sth am.

When I woke up this morning, it’s 10am! We’re supposed to wake up at 9am. But it’s okay since we actually have to meet up with PeiYing at 11.30am. So we actually have plenty of time. I got to drink Turtle Tea with Black Bubbles! Thanks to PeiYing who paid for it. We had a ‘tour’ in U Tower, it’s nice.. And then I went back to Stockwell to do some paperwork for changing room. I spent the whole evening working in the lab with Edward. Tiring~

And now, I’m in Duderstadt, writing Blog when I’m supposed to do the Drama’s Translation thingy :p

I’ve to start doing it NOW… …

Ciao~

Last post I dropped was long long time ago. And it was when I was in Malaysia.
Now, I’m back in Michigan for about one month+. A lot of interesting things can be the topic of my blog, just that I don’t have ‘time’ to drop one.

Although I’m supposed to "have no time" to drop a blog right now, I’m still ‘here’ because  I really feel like saying something…

-I r f b f s s t i s h s. I c t b m w a. J w s s t s l, f m h f b f t m h f s. m b, i r m b.-

Weekend is coming, I met a few friends and they are all looking forward the weekend, except me. This will be the worst weekend, I guess. Two exams coming up next Tuesday and Wednesday. How am I going to enjoy the weekend?
I just had my Physics last night, and stayed up till 1.30am to finish up my ChE Homework. What a tiring week I had, and another tiring week is coming..~ Anyway, in an optimistic way of thinking, I’m looking forward the following weekend, which will be the Fall Study Break (Glad to have my Midterms before the Study Break, so that I can really have fun).

How I hope everything can go a bit slower, including the ‘time’..

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I just came back from Alor Star this morning. Although the trip was not as what I’ve planned earlier, I didn’t regret for going. Coz it’s a really nice trip! One of the interesting things, we went to Paddy Muzium, a muzium that I won’t be able to visit in Kelantan. And, I enjoyed eating at "ji tiao loh", nice and cheap food, esp the Wanton at Lok Lok stall!! The most enjoyable part, I stayed at a very comfortable and nice house Thanks to Ling n her family..

I realize, summer holiday is going to end soon. Two weeks left.. How am I going to spend the time left? Going back to study life soon, kinda worry, kinda sad. Too much stuff is "holding" me back here. But I’ve no choice, I’ve to go back on Aug.29th!

All the while I was in Malaysia, I think, I’ve met and will meet most people that I wanted to meet, except Anne. And, I’ve gone and will go to places that I wanted to go, except Penang. Although I didn’t do much, I’m happy to be at home. And, I’ll make full use of the time left, hopefully.

塔了大概两天的飞机，终于回到马来西亚。 妈妈因为工作忙，所以只有爸爸，大舅和哥哥来把我接回家。我第一个到的地方是外婆家，去见见外公，还有大姨及其他刚巧也在那边的亲戚们。无可否认，外婆家里很多东西都不再一样，不过，最大的变化还是一个无法改变的事实 — 我不再有机会见到外婆。

当妈妈放工时，我们就去把她接回来。因为某某原因，第一晚的晚餐吃得不是很愉快。我也不只该怎么形容。

那天，爸爸和姨丈带我去膜拜外婆。

我就只能把饭盒打开、倒了杯水、点了两只香、坐在那儿，邀请外婆来吃饭。

那一种悲，又有谁能够体谅呢？

回来的这几天，的确发生了很多东西，就连我都不知该怎么说出口、也不知能够对谁说。

真的很希望一切一切很快的能够恢复正常，尤其是我那憔悴许多的妈妈。我知道，她有多伤心，多难过，因为我们也是如此的悲哀啊。从小就和外婆住在一起的我们，又怎么不明白她的感受呢？看见家里的每一样东西，都让我想起和外婆一起的日子。哥哥还让我看了一些他们拍下来的照片，我的眼泪依然忍不住流了出来。

那一夜，妈妈还对我说了外婆在入院前后发生的事情，说得她也哭了，我的泪更加忍不住的流着。

“外婆家”已是我们习惯说的话。每当朋友或任何人问我们在哪儿时，要是我们是在外婆家，我们都会这样回答。直到今天，还是一样，外婆家还是外婆家，外婆家就是我们长大的地方，就是我们和外婆的回忆。

现在，大家都比较懂事了，都会抽空陪伴外公。

但愿外婆能够安息，每个人也能够好好的生活下去。

那一个下午，我的手机响起了，是哥哥的来电。这几天，老实说， 我并不希望家里的任何人传短讯或拨电给我。哥哥什么都不需要说，我已经知道，家里一定出事了。

农历五月初一， 我丧失了我生命中最亲爱的人。活到二十岁的这一天， 家里第一次发生那么悲痛的事情。我相信，家里每个人都无法接受那突如其来的事实。

在美国的舅舅拨了一通电话给我，他也哭了。我就拨电通知也在加州工作的表哥。我们都愣了，该怎么办呢？

我什么都没做， 眼泪就一直在留着。我能够做些什么呢？等到俶伶考完试回来，和她吃完饭后，她就已经知道，有事情发生了。她问我，想回家吗？不需要考虑的我， 马上回答她。我其实已经在下午时拨电问问航空公司了，不过他们要我到机场去问问。俶伶就在我房里，上网帮我找机票。同时，舅舅也在加州托他那边的旅行社帮我找找。搞了一整夜，最后决定第二天到机场去。我也马上发了 email 给我的Professor , 问他要是我无法考 Final 的话, 那我是不是要把那科 drop 掉呢? 还好他明白我的苦衷, 免了我考Final 。

就在那短短的一个夜晚，把所有的东西都打包好。俶伶也就陪了我一整夜，累了一整夜。

那一晚，她和我，都没什么睡到。

第二天大清早，Jonathan 就来把我载去机场。我叫他不要等我了，他就先回去。和机场的两位服务员分别谈了两次，我的 Travel Agent, Thomas 也拨电给我。种种原因，我最后还是没提早回去了。我知道，家里的每个人都希望我能够回去，但他们都说，“无所谓，外婆明白的。” 又有谁知道我多么想回去呢? 我也就只好拖着行李回到 Residence Hall。 晚上就和俶伶出去买了一些衣服; 虽然换上一件黑或白色衣并不足以表示些什么, 或许这是我唯一能够做的吧。 

忙碌了两天, 我人也累了, 心也累了… 我知道, 俶伶也陪我一起累了。

感激她一路以来的陪伴, 要不然, 我早已崩溃了…

感激为我奔波的所有人, 也要对大家说声抱歉, 为大家增添了麻烦…