only one word to describe my feeling right now - tired..

tired- the kind of tired that no one knows.

tired- tired till i hope things will stop now.

tired- mentally tired, i guess.

tired- tired of life, probably.

tired- for everything? not yet..

glad that i can still stand for it.

i dreamed almost every night, recently..
and, in one of my dream"s", i even told someone what i dreamed about.. ridiculous~
coz i think a lot? maybe..
from "recent" to "future" worries, from "small" to "big" worries, from "important" to "trivial" worries, etc…
should i stop thinking?
or, should i think more?
hmmm, it is necessary to think, though.

too many things that ought to be done, but, i know, it’s impossible to get all my stuff done at once..
it’s time to sit down, and think, which is/are urgent and important one(s)..
however, they seem to be in ‘equilibrium’~ huh…

or maybe, i should get rid of those things that shouldn’t appear in my mind..
this is a better way, i guess.
self-control is ‘in place’ right now
it’s time to challenge myself… and, i hope i’ll win!

expect the unexpected~

普通朋友(陶喆)

等待我隨時隨地在等待

做你感情上的依賴
我沒有任何的疑問 這是愛

我猜你早就想要說明白
我覺得自己好失敗

從天堂掉落到深淵多無奈

我願意改變 (what can I do?) 重新再來一遍
(just give me chance) 我無法只是普通朋友
感情已那麼深 叫我怎麼能放手

但你說 I only want to be your friend
做個朋友 我在你心中只是just a friend 不是情人

我感激你對我這樣的坦白

但我給你的愛暫時收不回來

So I 我不能只是be your friend

I just can’t be your friend no,no,no,
我不能只是做你的朋友 不能只是做普通朋友

Sometimes when I wanna say something, I just don’t know how to express it.. I don’t know, seriously don’t know.. Maybe feeling is kind of hard to be expressed by words. I don’t know what is in my mind right now, no, should be today. Just feel weird weird, weird in a way that makes me feel uneasy..

Anyway, it is not that bad though. Feel much better after running on CCRB’s track.. I’m so tired and how I wish I could sleep right now, although it’s just 9.15pm.. One whole day, I’ve been doing something for one whole day, went to classes, discussed MSE homework with Denar, chat with my cousin brother, worked, ran and so forth. But I still don’t know what’s my problem today. Maybe I’m normal, just that I think too much, and thought that I have problem.. =_="

"I don’t know"…

And, because of these 3 words, I think my good friend-(gf) scolded me before. But I think this is me, and he knows this is me.. Guess he’s used to this kind of me ady :p

endless description of my feeling of the day~

I’m happy…

I’m happy, although I haven’t started doing my work when it’s Sunday afternoon.

I’m happy, although I haven’t started my weekly homework which is due on Wednesday.

I’m happy, although I haven’t started preparing for Math216 midterm which falls on Thursday, March 22nd.

I’m happy, although I haven’t even finish up my lab report which I started doing since last Tuesday.

I’m happy, although I have tons of work to do…

I’m happy…

And, that’s why I’m "dropping" a blog right now…

I’m happy with the trip to OSU!! =)

It’s a great trip although the purpose is not to travel or to shop.

It’s just a 2days-1night trip, but I gain more than the 10days trip to NewYork. The trip "opens my eyes", makes me a better person, hopefully..

I’m happy to spend the night with the girls, although it’s just a night.

Coz it’s a wonderful night of pillow-talking..

I guess we’ll remember the voice that whispered "Sleep now, sleep now…."  Muahahah :p

We are all busy, exams are coming, homework due and stuff like that.. Anyway, I believe, no one regret for joining this trip….

*Thanks to ShirGu and KaiMing who drove us there..

*Thanks to everyone who made the training a success..

It’s a really awesome trip!! =)

When i opened my eyes this "morning", it was 12.30pm!! What?!?!?! I was like, gosh!!…. Hmmm, fortunately it is Tuesday! I have lab at 1pm every Tuesday. And, lab lecture is in the morning.. well, i didn’t miss the lecture, coz I can actually attend the Thursday lecture, just that I have to shift my Thursday timetable.. Thank God(谢天谢地) ~ duh..

I realize something, I realize that we are the one who control how our day(s) will be. Although I was late and I was so panic when I woke up, I calmed myself and told myself not to be so ‘kan cheong’.. everything will be fine.. yes, it turned out that I had a great day!

I actually planned to do a lot of things this morning, and in the end, I did nothing, since it was already noon when I woke up. But, things go on smoothly the whole day. At least my Lab was not bad, the experiment was carried on smoothly,too..

And, I got something from the Warehouse Sale at the Union. I got a FCUK Jeans for my lovely brother, and I got a few shirts!! 

This evening was so beautiful!! It’s like Summer, although it’s not.. Everyone was sitting on the field, and some people were playing frisbee! What a nice day!! Today is the first day we don’t have to wear winter jacket! Or I should say that we don’t even have to wear jacket! Great! But…Sigh, this will last for one week ONLY! (This is what I heard from people out there..) 16 degree celsius will say goodbye to us soon? hmmm…

looking forward a nice Spring in Michigan~

When you have a dream, when you try hard to achieve your goal, when you use up all the energy in you to reach your aim, you see nothing, you hope for nothing, but SUCCESS!

Like any typical people out there, I have goals. With these goals in mind, I tried hard, try hard and will try hard throughout my life, to get what I aim for. But, will everyone get/achieve EVERYTHING that they aim for in their life? Probably not…

When you try to reach the shiniest star on the sky, what would the feeling be? Hmmm, nervous? excited? probably happy? and sweet maybe? Yea, all the feelings are there in you.. Booommmm!!! In a sudden… It turns out that, you can’t even reach the stars, what more the shiniest one? What would be your feeling then? The sky will immediately turn cloudy, get darker, and the heaviest ever rain will pour out STRAIGHTAWAY.. (Is this an example of uncontrollable phermones respond? crapping…)

=what a bad thing that just happened at the wrong time which no one will ever understand=

*upset*

第一次见面看你不太顺眼 谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天 一个像秋天 却总能把 冬天变成了春天

你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的断裂
遇见一个人然后 生命全改变
原来不是 恋爱才有的情节

如果不是你 我不会相信
朋友比情人 还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱 把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我 只是骂我几句
如果不是你 我不会确定
朋友比情人 更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音 我的有口无心
我离不开Darling更离不开你

你了解我所有得意的东西
才常泼我冷水怕我忘形
你知道我所有丢脸的事情 却为我的美好形象保密

i walked to computer lab to print out MSE stuff, which might be useful (hopefully).. When  i walked pass the elevator, i saw someone who stays near my room, holding a lot of stuff.. i don’t really noe her, though.. why do i mention her here? well, there’s another man who was holding a lot of stuff, too, came out from the elevator, walked towards her room. Classes resume tomoro, i shudn’t feel weird that a lot of people come back to residence hall today/tonight. What’s so special about these two people? Hmmm, they make me miss my daddy.. (that man was her dad, i guess..) My best daddy! When we were in high school, he’s the one who woke up the earliest n prepared breakfast for us.. On weekends, he’s the one who will prepare great meal for us! Whenever I face problems, he’s the first person that I will approach. Coz he’s a wise and optimistic person, he makes me happy whenever I’m sad.. Of course now, the only way to approach him is through email or msn, and phone call if it’s something urgent.. i love daddy as much as he loves me.. miss daddy’s food, miss daddy’s hug hug, miss daddy a lot~

*sob sob*